saying goodbye to someone that you BELIEVED to be a friend is one of the hardest things anyone could do, but also one of the most freeing.

forgive and let go. easier said than done.

Dear YOU,

Forgiveness doesn’t come easy. Sometimes it doesn’t come at all. When you first discover the truth, all you can do is feel angry, betrayed, and sometimes you feel like it’s your own fault. I could have done this better or that better, but you cannot control what someone else does. Usually it’s those that are closest to us that hurt us the most. Not because the crime was the worst, although sometimes it is, but because there is the most to lose with those relationships. I felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest. It just hurt from head to toe. Now I just feel angry. Angry that you say you were trying to help my relationship yet you were only make it grow more distant. I’m angry at you for being spiteful, smiling to my face while stabbing me in the back. I asked for time, and you won’t give it to me. I don’t want to look at my phone in fear that you have texted me or called me because it only remind me more, if it is even possible to think about it more than all the time. Right now, I don’t want your friendship. I don’t want to talk to you. I don’t want to move past this with you like nothing happened. I need to deal with my own problems instead of feeling sorry for you. Sorry that you are desperate, alone, and need more attention from every guy that crosses your path. Once I have healed myself and am able to see that you are just a person that makes mistakes like the rest of us, then we can talk about forgivenness. Right now, you aren’t anything to me. Forgive me, but I need time to heal before you can have any sort of forgiveness.

Sincerely,

Elisha

when karma comes back to punch you in the face, I wanna be there…just in case it needs help.

just because i look back occasionally, doesn’t mean i’m going back.

Trust

Dear Trust,

Why are you so fragile and breakable,

Yet it is really hard to gain you back?

Even if it take me forever to

regain you. Still I can’t

put you all up together again

like it used to be.

But no matter what

I promise to have at least

half of you back again.

Love, ME.

(Source: hellyeahitsrandom)